Beiträge vom 九月, 2009

算了吧,就这样

星期二, 29. 九月 2009 10:30

我已经很久没有这样静静地坐下来想一些事情,写一些东西了。这一切对于现在的我来说太奢侈。

我和珊珊说,现在的我不再如从前一样关心你我的命运以及自己无法预知的一切。不再关心抬头时的云舒云卷。

丁阳前段时间生了个女儿,我给她寄了张明信片。可我忘了她的名字。

生活一天又一天的重复着,我不再如刚来到这里的时候一样兴奋,不再如一个月前那样常常让自己在此处与彼处游离,没日没夜地站在门外看“Shao’s Quarry View”,这是Jake说的。Shao是我在这里的名字。

Jake是我的印度同学,戴一副眼镜,是长的最帅最文气的印度同学,说话轻声细语,常常微笑。他和Andy一起住。有一天晚上,我们坐在门口的台阶上抽了两支烟,聊了很久的天。

晚上。两个人。坐在台阶上。抽烟。聊天。

我喜欢这样,如果有酒的话,那会更好一些。我有时会想念在国内的时候和我的那些狐朋狗友一起度过的操蛋时光,有时会想念⋯⋯想念什么?抱歉,在这里,我无力运用排比句,除了想念那些美好的操蛋的时光,我毫无牵挂。

前段时间在公车上遇到一个在哲学系读研究生的同学。他后来写了很长的一封信给我。前天的时候,我们通了将近两个小时的电话,聊各种各样有趣的话题。昨天晚上他有打电话给我,可是我没有接到。

我似乎已经见到了本该属于我的生活,即使这样的见到只是一种寮望。

Thema: This is Not Real Life, 未分类 | Kommentare (0) | Autor: shaoyan

两件事

星期日, 13. 九月 2009 10:24

最近,我在做两件事。

穿一双漂亮却不合脚的鞋。

和一个我并不爱的优秀的男人恋爱。

我坚持穿那一双漂亮的鞋,是因为我想信总有一天,她会变得柔软,然后舒适,接下来因为我那么爱她,她也无私地爱上了我。

可我为什么要和A在一起。一想到要和他做爱,我就会觉得有一点点恶心。可我为什么要和他在一起,因为他说爱我,因为我觉得他将有所成就。因为我丧失了一些道德,放弃了一些原则。还有,就如你们所看到的,我的文字能力,一天一天地在消退。。。

Thema: This is Love, 未分类 | Kommentare (1) | Autor: shaoyan

就这样,我又换博了

星期五, 4. 九月 2009 10:02

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Revolutionary Road

星期四, 3. 九月 2009 21:55

Went to another beach near my place today, which is not as good as the one Yulia and I have been to. Sure, I am trying my best to find myself every tiny peace of happiness.

Manypeople, yes, white people, are there enjoying sunshine, swimming, sailing, water-scooter, with their DOGs. I know, there are so many Asian girls making their best afford to melt themselves into the large pot. However, sometimes, many things are beyond your control. I can’t swim, I don’t have a water-scooter nor a boat, I even don’t have a friend who has these items. The worst thing, which will never be changed is that I’m trying to like dogs, but, sorry, once even a small dog come towards me, I’ll have an eager of shouting “help”! However, any way, I can still enjoy the sunshine by myself, with my music or novel, right? Anyway, I have good body shape to show off, sorry, I’m vain, who cares how you looks like in this country.

Heard a story yesterday, sounds like another version of “Revolutionary Road”. It’s about Inna, a Russian girl migrating to Israel when she was young. She is the wife of a man who was relieved of his employment, before, he was a programmer, and the mother of a six-year-old boy. After her husband was discharged, her family–her husband, her little son, and her moved to Canada. She studied in the university, her husband is jobless, her son went to daycare center everyday. When I was seeing that movie, I liked the main character–the woman so much, and now, I feel there is a kind of pulse, I want to know more about Inna, I think I will like her, and her family. She looks elegant, from the beginning to now.

Oh, I have a neighbor, an old and wise man, his name is Art. The day before yesterday, my landlady and I went to visit him. He has a tele cope. We watched moon and Jupiter with it. It is said, he has a minimized steam-working train downstairs, I’m looking forward to see it someday in the future.

Thema: This is Not Real Life, 未分类 | Kommentare (2) | Autor: shaoyan

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